"Hearts are stronger after broken. So wake on up from your slumber, baby, open up your eyes!"

More than a year ago I attended a church service which placed this card in my possession.

I received this during the period that occurred after I'd broken and I was in the recovery stages. I felt awakened, raw, humbled and eager to learn. The sermon had a compelling message and I had strong intentions to hold my self accountable to loving in this way. I realized that these are the ways in which we should love one another. I never wanted the people in my life to question my love for them and I was certain that my faithfulness to these simple truths were going to ensure that I would do exactly what I intended.

I succeeded.

I failed. 

I failed because I forgot.

It only takes an infraction of ONE of these guidelines to fall short of showing your overwhelming love for someone. It's absolutely impossible to show love through, insecurity, selfishness, anger, envy, pessimism and pride. It's difficult to give when we're reminded so often by others how fleeting our ability to show love actually is.

You mean it until you don't

You see until you're blind

You give until you take

You take until you give

You're deaf until you hear

You can until you can't

You can't until you can

You won't until you will

You will until you won't

You don't love til you do

You love until you don't 

I am reminded, I will love

I am stubborn. I asked you to lead me, yet I followed my own path. I asked to be shown the way, but I made myself blind to your guidance. I asked for strength to resist, yet wallowed in temptation. Finally, I asked for my greatest fear, to be broken, and you delivered.

 

Thank you loving me enough to keep reminding me. Please forgive me. I am yours.